The Page-A-Day Calendars
- November 11th, 2010
- Posted in Miscellaneous
- By Martin Iwanowicz
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In December, 2009 I got two page-a-day calendars for 2010.
Today, November 11, 2010, they’re both still showing February 12th. Why did I save them, and why do I feel guilty at the idea of throwing them away now? Why do I feel obligated to use them?
When I packed them up almost exactly 9 months ago, I felt the need to save them. When I was cleaning my desk out just a few hours ago it struck me that it would do a disservice to the people who gave them to me to throw them away. Yes, I feel guilt at the idea of throwing them away, unfinished, before the end of the year.
But the truth is I don’t really like page-a-day calendars. I think they represent gasping for air while in a job, situation, or just generally smothering life. They supplement real experience, and real enjoyment for “good enough” by taking away just that little bit of mundane and giving a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how faint. Or maybe they’re just kinda annoying. Let us not forget the fact that I let them sit idle without a second thought for 3/4 of the year. In fact, for those 3/4 of a year while I was actually living life I don’t think I gave them a second thought.
And here I am, debating whether I should throw them away, keep them, or go through every page I missed one by one. The only reason I’m looking at them now is because I’m cleaning out the clutter from my life, starting with the material clutter. Since I evidently don’t use them, and in some ways they cause me more stress than pleasure, it’s time to throw them away.
I apologize to those who gave them to me. I value you in my life, but a page-a-day calendar just isn’t the right thing for me, at this time. I do hope you’ll understand. I don’t understand why I feel I need to apologize, but I do. Thanks for the thought, but next time just give me hug or something.
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